Now I think about it, I always try to emulate 2007
2007 I felt like I was on my prime, I scored an average 80 for Chem all the time, (even when I took it up accidentally if you can tell I'm not much of a science person) I was on a fucking roll and to think about it I'm doing the same amount of shit this year, and more but it's not the academics that's weighing me down. Really academics should never twarth your priorities ,there's life and love ahead of you. So what is it about this year

I enjoyed waking up at 9 getting ready for about 2 hours and coop myself up on a starbucks chair or the friendly neighbourhood library for a day of good ol' fashioned singaporean studying. Then every hour or two get some "fresh air" and back again. Then I could meet friends at night whatever. My schedule was relaxed, I studied all day so I could chill all night. I could stop whenever I liked start whenever I liked. I was skinnier ,definitely, but achieved it through very unhealthy ways kiddos. I always stood my ground, never let anyone talk me down and always did what went by my personal principles and thoughts. If contradicted I brushed it off brazenly, if lauded I accepted whole-heartedly. No it wasn't insensitivity, it was just confidence and independence.

I'm fat and when I walk, my thighs graze each other and everytime I feel that I feel like taking a knife and carving the fats out. It's all again my fault, I mean I haven't been exercising and you know what they say when you pass that phase.. Now I feel like i'm in the most rigid schedule ever. But the funny thing is, it's not the school that's imposing this. Nor is it me. So.. why can't I break free from this. Or perhaps I have subconciously caved in to being fettered into regime..